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sometimes I think myself into a place where all preconfigured systematic knowledge, from scientific rationalism to dogmatic theology and everything between, seems as though to only obscure the infinite variability of pata/metaphoric mythopoesis. so like, maybe the idea that the universe is however many billions of years “old,” maybe that’s only a metaphor and all thinking consequential to premises so ignorant of their own abstraction will never overcome its blindspots. it’s all stories, is what I think I’m saying.
which isn’t to suggest that metaphor is “bad” or that clear literary thinking ought to focus, Iowa-workshop-style, on Things and Senses. I do not write “concrete/literal” alt-lit blah blah blah, because we still can’t be sure we’re not the butterfly in the dream.
to Heidegger, metaphysics distracts thinkers from the true task of philosophy, which I can only assume he thought was “how can I lick boots even better?”
the section labeled “metaphysics” in any bookstore is full of used Ram Dass shit and like, ~high vibe~ narcissism-as-self-help.
that shelf is often near books that have taught me something I think people once called “wisdom,” if not exactly a coherent worldview.
the universe seems a teeming morass of oscillation and drama, the complexification of which involutes itself through resonances both attractive and repellent to fractal instances of energy that is Love, forever and ever, amen, peace out, fuck you.