hits from T.S. Eliot’s “Tradition and the Individual Talent”

  • No poet, no artist of any art, has his complete meaning alone. His significance, his appreciation is the appreciation of his relation to the dead poets and artists. You cannot value him alone; you must set him, for contrast and comparison, among the dead.
  • It is not desirable to confine knowledge to whatever can be put into a useful shape for examinations, drawing-rooms, or the still more pretentious modes of publicity.
  • What is to be insisted upon is that the poet must develop or procure the consciousness of the past and that he should continue to develop this consciousness throughout his career.
  • The progress of an artist is a continual self-sacrifice, a continual extinction of personality.
  • [T]he mind of the mature poet differs from that of the immature one not precisely in any valuation of “personality,” not being necessarily more interesting, or having “more to say,” but rather by being a more finely perfected medium in which special, or very varied, feelings are at liberty to enter into new combinations.
  • [T]he more perfect the artist, the more completely separate in him will be the man who suffers and the mind which creates; the more perfectly will the mind digest and transmute the passions which are its material.
  •  The poet’s mind is in fact a receptacle for seizing and storing up numberless feelings, phrases, images, which remain there until all the particles which can unite to form a new compound are present together.
  • It is not in his personal emotions, the emotions provoked by particular events in his life, that the poet is in any way remarkable or interesting. His particular emotions may be simple, or crude, or flat. The emotion in his poetry will be a very complex thing, but not with the complexity of the emotions of people who have very complex or unusual emotions in life. One error, in fact, of eccentricity in poetry is to seek for new human emotions to express; and in this search for novelty in the wrong place it discovers the perverse. The business of the poet is not to find new emotions, but to use the ordinary ones and, in working them up into poetry, to express feelings which are not in actual emotions at all. And emotions which he has never experienced will serve his turn as well as those familiar to him.
  • Poetry is not a turning loose of emotion, but an escape from emotion; it is not the expression of personality, but an escape from personality. But, of course, only those who have personality and emotions know what it means to want to escape from these things.
  • The emotion of art is impersonal. And the poet cannot reach this impersonality without surrendering himself wholly to the work to be done. And he is not likely to know what is to be done unless he lives in what is not merely the present, but the present moment of the past, unless he is conscious, not of what is dead, but of what is already living.

mindful pains

against the advisement of my mental health professionals, not to mention my better judgement, I’ve been listening to Death Is Just Around the Corner a lot lately, for the first time in years. why is this a bad idea? aside from Mikey’s contagious pessimism, astute as it may be (though he seems better since kicking junk, and my parasocial well wishes to him for it), it means I’m thinking, as though I don’t already, too much about Pynchon, too much about Gravity’s Rainbow, too much about how maybe there’s nothing left for me to say.

because I only ever need the slightest nudge in that direction, now I’m thinking maybe I’ll reread Gravity’s Rainbow. to be sure, I will eventually. but I probably ought not right now. again, peace be upon MSJ, no shade, one love, all that, but I really don’t want to be a guy who filters basically everything through his understanding of Gravity’s Rainbow. it’s a little much to have every episode of your podcast make reference to, or quote at length, one novel, exhaustive as that novel might seem.

of course, MSJ has a broad and deep understanding of a lot literature, so I don’t mean to suggest otherwise. in fact, I’m envious of how much he seems to know, how thorough and dedicated his thinking is, the conviction and self-assurance he has connecting a variety of disparate ideas. why can’t I seem to maintain that steely-eyed focus? probably because it would make me a spoil-sport, a wet blanket, a crank, an impolite dinner guest. and unfortunately, somewhere along the way, I learned, subconsciously, that it’s a lot easier to be a go along to get along kind of guy. why, I know all too well why. it’s embarrassing how much psychoanalysis still holds true.

with the help of my actual, not metaphorical, mental health professional, who isn’t a psychoanalyst per se, I’m coming to realize a whole host of shit I spent the better part of my life deliberately not realizing. not like, repressed memories or whatever, I don’t even really believe in repressed memories. but working through shit, that’s what making art is for, but also but my internal resistance to fully submerging into what all that shit is is, well, there’s a lot of tricks my ego plays to dissuade me from getting there. one of the most obvious, to me anyway, is thinking about Gravity’s Rainbow, rather than touching upon whatever it is in me that’s fucked.

complicating my own personal internal defense mechanisms is that I have to spend 40 hours a week turning off my ability to feel and think deeply so that I can do customer service. and more than anything, what I envy Pynchon for is having been granted the time and money to lose his fucking mind enough to create a book that seems to encapsulate the whole world. but to do that, he had to really touch upon whatever it is in him that’s fucked, and also whatever it is in the world that’s fucked, and boy howdy is that a lot of pain to feel.

fall temperatures

drying up in the throat as grief over what’s no longer able to be counted on sets in motion a cascading cataclysm we knew was coming and did nothing to avoid. maybe it’s time to quit. sell the car. stop pretending it’s all cool with me, man, whatever you want. as long as you’re okay, i’m okay, okay? okay?! just leave me the fuck alone! i’ll be squatting in the abandoned strip mall grocery store, the one miraculously scheduled for a renovation, the kind of renovation that signals the beginning of the end, because here comes the avant garde, scoping out where the vampires can get their last bit of blood before it all dries up

quotes I’ve enjoyed recently

I was twenty-five before I realized stockings were sexy.

The Names, Don DeLillo

The artist bending to the necessities of his/her creative process ought, for aesthetics’ sake, eschew the strengths of the given medium.

Stan Brakhage

For all history is in some measure a fall of the sacred, a limitation and diminution. But the sacred does not cease to manifest itself, and with each new manifestation it resumes its original tendency to reveal itself wholly.

Mircea Eliade

So you thought you might like to/Go to the show/To feel the warm thrill of confusion/That space cadet glow

“In the Flesh?”, Pink Floyd

All human endeavour and progress are being swept aside to make room for hideous sounds.

Julius Harrison

We are not depressed; we’re on strike.

The Invisible Committee

even the ice cream truck needs gasoline

“‘If you want to keep everyone happy, sell ice cream.’ We are not in the business of ice cream—and I’m reminded, there are people who are lactose intolerant.” — Tengku Muhammad Taufik, president and group CEO of Malaysia’s state energy firm, Petronas

“I don’t see where we are today as something that is going to end our industry although there are some out there that want it to go away. As we have done in the past, we will find ways to innovate out of this situation that we’re in,” — Vicki Hollub, CEO of Texas-based multinational Occidental Petroleum

“We will never make enough to please the ones which are against oil and gas, but my mission is not to please them. Our mission is to deliver to the society the energy we need today and tomorrow and for that I feel comfortable.” — Patrick Pouyanne, head of French oil company TotalEnergies

Ghoul is from the Arabic غُول ghūl, from غَالَ ghāla, “to seize”. In Arabic, the term is also sometimes used to describe a greedy or gluttonous individual. (Wikipedia)

https://www.independent.co.uk/climate-change/news/oil-gas-fossil-fuels-heat-b2422655.html

Stravinsky on Spotify

the staccato geometry of the overlapping window panes recalls modernist techniques either passé or endlessly replicated by hacks far removed from whatever pressures moved artists in the decades following the birth of the 20th century. little did those artists know where all that sound and fury might lead to, but we know, a century later, that whatever pressures bear down on us now aren’t moving us in the same ways, if at all.

snippets of a language we might understand if we listened a little closer, and studied a little harder.

everyone looks tired, and if they don’t, well, we’re not sure they live in the same world.

we listened to stravinsky on spotify. we watched the angles of telephone lines shift with our perspective.

Mein Kalifornien über alles

typical of a warm summer night in Ojai, the locals, greying in white linen pants and floppy hats, came out in force. the seats were sold out, leaving only standing room for anyone without a ticket. hard to say if the turn out would have been less impressive had the tickets cost anything. since we showed up only five minutes before the officially listed start time, we could not find two seats next to each other, despite reserving the aforementioned free tickets.

Bart’s Books touts itself as the largest outdoor bookstore in the world. not sure if that’s true, but it is an impressive space, my bookseller of choice—being in the “vortex” of Ojai, they have a large selection of occult, new age, conspiracy, and other titles tantalizing to anyone with a taste for woo. the sizeable courtyard was filled with attendees eager to see the reading to be given by Lee Herrick, who, if you weren’t aware (and, let’s be honest, why would you be), is the California state poet laureate.

we settled into one of the fiction alcoves (~Te-Tu, if memory serves), and on my left in an aisle seat sat a tall blonde man–my boss. he made a confused face, said “no I don’t think so” when asked if we talked about this event, and introduced his girlfriend and himself to my girlfriend. no further conversation. I suggested to my girlfriend that we move back to “look for somewhere to sit,” because standing uncomfortably only feet away from my boss on a Saturday night, at an event I suspected would be very much up his alley and very much not even in my neighborhood, did not sound like a great time.

where we ended up standing, in the back with easy getaway access, should we need to make a getaway, was a man, about thirty, bearded with dreadlocks done up in a bun. now I know what you’re thinking: dreadlocks? in Ojai? shouldn’t someone tell him about cultural appropriation? don’t worry, this man was black. he kept on the shelf next to him a composition notebook, with the classic mottled cover. throughout the reading he pulled it off the shelf to make notes of lines he particularly savored, an appreciation he expressed by either closing his eyes and smiling pensively, or snapping once, just once, before jotting something down. this is a man who I would have been interested in speaking with, if only because there really aren’t very many nonwhite people in Ojai, but more so because he was absolutely absorbed in the experience, so present with the poetry, in a way that I just didn’t feel at all–perhaps I am too jaded, perhaps I didn’t enter with an open enough mind, perhaps I’m just a hater. or maybe I have a stronger bullshit meter, and I’m right that the people who apparently so enjoyed the poetry that night seemed to be convincing themselves of the work’s power, that the paucity of actual poetry in their lives leaves them bereft, hungering for the tiniest morsel of Art, and so they trick themselves into believing they’re eating ambrosia and not Soylent.

the opening act was a local woman, whose name I don’t remember, who read unremarkable poems not helped by her lack of stage presence. she prefaced some of them by saying she wrote them back in the aughts (“post-9/11”), when she was practicing “mindful” and “nonviolent” parenting. seems strange to have to clarify that your parenting style is “nonviolent,” but that was the form her resistance to the Bush administration took. it wouldn’t be fair to snipe at this woman’s poems when I don’t really remember them, so I won’t. the sonnets she read at least showed an interest in rhythm, much more so than a lot of the so-called “poets” of my generation do.

in what seem to be signature trapezoidal glasses and blue sport coat, Lee Herrick demonstrated a much greater comfort with holding an audience, no doubt something that helped him through his California Congressional confirmation hearings. why any poet would want the imprimatur of one of the United States’ governing bodies is beyond me, but then again I do like Elizabeth Bishop, William Carlos Williams, and Louise Gluck, so who knows, maybe if I reached a similar stature as a writer I’d be honored to consult the Amerikkkan Empire on matters of poetry. Herrick of course only serves KKKalifornia, at the behest of the Getty’s Golden Boy Gavin Newsom. The Governor’s office’s press release said of Herrick’s work that it “explores the diversity and vitality of the California experience and the exhilarating success of the American experiment.” exhilarating success? Gavin have you been to Los Angeles or San Francisco recently? what conclusions do you think any of the thousands of “unhoused” people filling the encampments beneath freeway overpasses might draw when judging the results of the American experiment?

Herrick’s poetry precisely articulates the willful blindness of liberalism, full of cutesy multiculturalism and bullshit politics that get nowhere near addressing anything like the Reality of the World. one poem he read, “My California,” contains the lines “In Fresno, the bullets/tire of themselves and begin to pray five times a day.//In Fresno, we hope for less of the police state and more of a state of grace.” aside from gesturing at social issues, there’s no real interrogation of these conditions, seeing as this observation about Fresno comes immediately after the declaration, “Here, in my California//we fish out long noodles from the pho with such accuracy/you’d know we’d done this before.” like, who cares if we’ve eaten pho before? what does juxtaposing those things reveal? a different poet might play up the ironies, the disparity between the poverty of somewhere like Fresno and the “group of four at a window/table in Carpinteria” who “discuss the quality of wines in Napa Valley versus Lodi.” but here these details are just thrown against the page, in the hope that something will cohere. Herrick has professed a love for Walt Whitman, but he seems to think Leaves of Grass is merely the record of a blithe meander through America. at least in Ginsberg, another Whitman disciple, his freeranging rants exude a real sense of anger and despair; somehow I don’t think Herrick, being the adoptive Korean son of white Americans, had quite as radical an upbringing as Ginsberg did, what with his communist mother dragging him to Party meetings as a child. later Herrick read another poem, with an Anthony Bourdain quote as an epigraph (“Street food, I believe, is the salvation of the human race”), that just sort of runs through a bunch of different kinds of street food, which, as with his perfunctory references to various cultures and ethnic groups, merely reduces them all to fungible signifiers. it’s the literary equivalent of a corporate Pride parade float.

but a poet doesn’t have to have good politics to be good at poetry; in fact, too much politics tends to curdle poetry into propaganda. an acute ear, a concern for metaphor, a strong perspective that freshens the reader’s sense of being alive, these are all qualities that make up a great poet. and Herrick sometimes writes a decent phrase: in “Here, in my California, the streets remember the Chicano/poet whose songs still bank off Fresno’s beer soaked gutters” the trochaic lilt of the second line vivifies the image of dirty gutters, playing off the idea of sound “banking” against concrete. but “Here, in my California,” the poem’s refrain, is so plodding, like an uncertain elephant, that I wonder if Herrick even realizes it’s possible to marry rhythm to content. during the Q&A, he said that he “experiences the world through sound,” but I’m not convinced he has a very good grasp on how sound creates meaning—something a celebrated poet ought to understand.

elsewhere his metaphors and images seem clumsy and confused: a poem about mothers, titled “How Music Stays in the Body,” opens with “Your body is a song called birth/or first mother, a miracle that gave birth/to another exquisite song,” and dilutes its “song = mother” metaphor before it can even get going. “One song leapt/from fourteen stories high, and like a dead bird,/shattered into the clouds.” egregiously mixed metaphor aside, I for one have never seen a dead bird shatter into the clouds, nor do I understand what that might mean. (this was one of the lines my dreadheaded neighbor snapped emphatically for, suggesting he might not have the best poetic judgement). another poem, “Flight,” uses the conceit of an unfinished crossword puzzle, which could be effective for some linguistic calisthenics, but doesn’t really go anywhere: there are glancing references to Frida Kahlo and Maxine Hong Kingston that culminate in wondering whether they would like the same tea. this question is posed, along with “how exactly we fall in love,” as one of the “things we will never/know, as it should be.” never mind why anyone would care to know if these women might like the same tea. it’s a boring question, and while I’m at it, “how exactly we fall in love,” without further elaboration, is a trite one.

after he finished, the floor opened for Q&A. first up was a woman (white) who asked if he’d heard of some writer. Herrick politely considered and said the name sounded familiar, but that no, he hadn’t. “well I really think you should read them,” the woman said, and summarized how the writer focuses on life in Cambodia under the reign of Pol Pot during the Khmer Rouge, something she thinks is woefully understudied in American schools nowadays. what Herrick was supposed to say to that, I have no idea. he handled the asinine audience questions like a true pro though: not a single person was offended.

but what I’ll say is that maybe poetry ought to be a little more like Pol Pot, and a little less like Gavin Newsom.

Every time desire is betrayed, cursed, uprooted from its field of immanence, a priest is behind it. The priest cast the triple curse on desire: the negative law, the extrinsic rule, and the transcendent ideal. Facing north, the priest said, Desire is lack (how could it not lack what it desires?). The priest carried out the first sacrifice, named castration, and all the men and women of the north lined up behind him, crying in cadence, “Lack, lack, it’s the common law.” Then, facing south, the priest linked desire to pleasure. For there are hedonistic, even orgiastic, priests. Desire will be assuaged by pleasure; and not only will the pleasure obtained silence desire for a moment but the process of obtaining it is already a way of interrupting it, of instantly discharging it and unburdening oneself of it. Pleasure as discharge: the priest
carries out the second sacrifice, named masturbation. Then, facing east, he exclaimed: Jouissance is impossible, but impossible jouissance is inscribed in desire. For that, in its very impossibility, is the Ideal, the “manque-a-jouir that is life.” The priest carried out the third sacrifice, phantasy or the thousand and one nights, the one hundred twenty days, while the men of the East chanted: Yes, we will be your phantasy, your ideal and impossibility, yours and also our own. The priest did not turn to the west. He knew that in the west lay a plane of consistency, but he thought that the way was blocked by the columns of Hercules, that it led nowhere and was uninhabited by people. But that is where desire was lurking, west was the shortest route east, as well as to the other directions, rediscovered or deterritorialized.

“November 28, 1947: How Do You Make Yourself a Body without Organs?”, Gilles Deleuze & Félix Guattari

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that life as we understand it is a construction of the processes of the human mind as it interprets inputs of a higher dimensional order than the 3D projection we experience phenomena in–as in the mind is a reduction valve (Blake) for an infinite expanse of information enlivened by interactions with a vivifying or enlightening principle every point a collapsed compression of the All holographically distributed Time’s moments all occurring simultaneously and the illusion of before after cause effect a byproduct of the reduction made necessary by the shearing off of spectra by the human sensorium which can expand beyond its typical capabilities as dictated by external demands for consensus and maybe that UFO whistleblower is right maybe anomalous phenomena paranormal occurrences perturbations in the field of Reality are shadows cast from a higher dimension as a light shadow is a 2D trace of a 3D object